24. The Projector (Part 1)

Speaker A: 00:00:00

Through the deep absorption and penetration and with awareness, the projector can clearly see and guide the other. And the awareness for the projector is specifically necessary to be able to discern what is me and what is not me.

And as the projector focuses on penetrates one other very deeply, they are then able to show the other what they see. Right, so this is where the word projector comes from.

Think of a old school projector machine shines a light onto an image and then projects that image larger, more legibly, more visibly on the wall for others to see.

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Speaker A: 00:02:26

It's projector time! Let's go. As we move into the projector type, we're looking at the first of the two non energy types.

So thus far we've talked about the two aura types where the auric function and therefore the experience of being in a body in that aura has to do with the use of energy.

With the projector and the reflector, we're going to be talking about the two aura types whose auric function and therefore the experience of being in the body inside of that aura does not actually have to do with energy at all.

And sometimes I'll refer to these two types, the projector and the reflector, as the awareness types, where the auric function has more to do with what's happening on an awareness level than the energy that's moving through that body.

Bringing this up here for one, just as a sort of distinction that we're shifting here from energy types into awareness types, but also I think that as we move through the types in the order that we're moving through them, Generator, manifestor, projector, reflector. It can become a bit more complex to grasp how the scent, specifically the center definition, translates to the Auric experience.

It's so simple with the generator, as I discussed in both the generator and the manifestor videos, because it's all based on sacral mechanics and things get a little a lot more complex as we move through the types.

So just offering that as a heads up, what we will take a look at in this projector lecture are essentially the same sort of questions and concepts that we did for generators and manifestors. We'll look at the mechanics for the projector. What makes a projector a projector? Based on their center mechanics.

They are non sacrals with some definition, but no motorized throat. We'll break that down. We'll talk about the penetrating and absorbing or focused and absorbing aura of the projector.

We'll talk about the projector strategy of waiting for the invitation and my sort of additional way of thinking about the aura types as what is the vehicle's fundamental prerogative for the projector to see and to guide the other? With lots of projector quotes from RA and additional concepts that feel important for projector basics throughout.

Projectors are about 20% of the population. Projectors aura is described as deeply absorbing and deeply penetrating. Projectors experiment with the strategy of waiting for an invitation.

And in their experimentation, projectors will notice themes of success and bitterness. And I use the word or recognition in parentheses. I don't think that success and recognition are interchangeable.

They're two different things, but they go hand in hand. Recognition is a contributing factor towards success for projectors. So we'll be breaking down both success and recognition.

Projectors can have a Lot of authorities, the most authorities of all the types. For generators, as we discussed, it's either emotional or sacral. For manifestors, it can be emotional, splenic or ego.

For projectors, it can be emotional, splenic, ego, self projected or mental authority. And this has to do with the projector mechanics. What makes a projector a projector?

So far we've discussed that any being with a defined sacral center is a generator, and any non sacral with a different motor center connected through a channel to the throat is a manifestor. In the next section, we'll look at how beings with all nine centers undefined are reflectors.

And so in a way, projectors are sort of the catch all, because projectors are non sacrals without a motor to the throat, but who have two or more centers defined, some center definition, they're not a reflector because there is some center definition. So here that is broken down again, but phrased a little differently and perhaps a bit more pointedly.

The mechanics for the projector are based on what they are not.

Projectors are not generators, they are not sacral beings, they are not manifestors, they do not have a motor to the throat, and they are not reflectors because they do have some definition of other than motor to throat or defined sacral. And a reflector is a being with no definition.

There's nothing in them, there's no defined consistent life force within them to contrast their openness, which we'll break down a lot more in the reflector lecture. But projectors do have some definition to contrast the openness in their design. But that definition is definition.

That does not make them an energy type. It does not make them a generator or a manifestor.

This to me has always felt really important because what we're saying here is that projectors are defined mechanically by what they are not. And I have come to understand that as a foundational way of understanding the aura functionality of the projector.

Projectors see what they are through seeing what they are not through contrasting the consistency of their non generator, non manifester definition with the impermanence of the absorption that they take in of the other through their openness. This theme is threaded throughout this entire lecture. This idea of projectors know the other, and through knowing the other, they know themselves.

They come to know themselves through this constant compare and contrast. But rather than just saying projectors are a catch all, they're not a generator, they're not a manifestor, they're ref.

They're not a reflector, which is the way I have heard it before, when we're trying to understand the aura type for the projector based on their center definition and center openness.

Rather than saying that, I find it more meaningful to have this idea to kind of orient to with the projector mechanics of there's so many different types of projectors, right? Because it can be any two or more centers defined.

But that definition of those two or more centers defined in the projector does not bring any consistency of generating or manifesting. Thus, what is the fixed life force inside of a projector is specifically about here's your life force. But this life force is not about doing.

This life force is about being and seeing, because doing is associated with generating and manifesting these energy types. So for projectors, you're not reflectors.

You have some life force that is your own, but it's not a life force that has anything to do with the expenditure of energy. And yet that life force is your consistency through which you compare and contrast all the other other that you take in through your openness.

When we get to the reflector, we'll talk about how reflectors are the only lunar being of the three types. Projectors, manifestors and generators are all solar beings. And we'll break that down more in the reflector lecture.

But I want to point that out here that projectors have some things in common with reflectors in that they are types of whose auric functionality is based on awareness, not energy.

But they also have quite a bit in common with manifestors and generators in that they do have their own fixed life force, which is not the case for reflectors. And we'll again talk about that more when we get to reflectors and we talk about what does it mean to be a lunar being versus a solar being.

But just to sort of initially introduce that here, the solar beings, generators, manifestors and projectors have their own fixed life force. And so that fixed life force for the projector is a huge part of their auric functionality.

Understanding who they are in relation to the other is a massive part of the projector functionality as is. And that, that I guess, is this third piece here.

There's some definition, some consistent life force, but the other two crucial components to what the projector mechanics are are that their fixed life force has nothing to do. So revisiting this first pillar of what it means to be a projector, first is being non sacral, which we've talked about in the manifesto lecture.

But a quick review now, under the pretense of projectorhood, projectors are non sacral. A Reminder of what it means to have an undefined sacral center.

Being undefined in the sacral makes you a non sacral, a projector manifestor, a reflector. You belong to this minority, 30% of the population whose life force is inconsistently fueled.

Maybe, and maybe I'm getting more specific actually about my language, even from when I recorded and created the slides for the centers. The sacral center is what fuels and energizes life force. But life force is really any fixed channel definition in your own design.

So projectors have their fixed life force, but that life force is not fueled in any consistent way because of the undefined sacral center. Non sacrals borrow, amplify, sacral energy from others and or from transits in alignment with their strategy and authority.

So when and how is my life force utilized depends on the life force that the undefined sacral center is taking in.

Which is, as we're going to get into throughout this lecture, very different circumstances to navigate that for the projector than for the manifestor.

The manifestor, the other non sacral, we've looked at so far, their inconsistency of when they utilize the life force, when they utilize energy that amplifies their life force happens through the manifestor within their own closed aura, through their urges, through their creative urges for the projector. The navigation around that all has to do with their strategy and of waiting for the invitation.

Projectors are not designed for regular or consistent expenditure of energy. Projectors and all other non sacral bodies do not experience satisfaction through the expenditure of energy.

Nor do we get a cue from our undefined sacrals that we're done. That would cue the satisfaction at the sense of completion.

For non sacrals, including projectors, response mode is going to be exhausting as there's not consistent energy to respond and therefore there's not a consistent availability for life. All types experience life force. Generators carry the fuel for that life force that is their auric function.

All of the other non sacral types, including projectors, have an auric function that has to do with absorbing, amplifying and guiding life force in their own type specific way. The second thing that makes projectors mechanically projectors is not being manifestors.

So they're a non sacral that does not have motor to throat definition. Otherwise they would be a manifestor. Projectors could have a defined throat and or they could have a defined non sacral motor.

So there are some projectors that you'll hear people refer to as energy projectors, meaning that they have one of these non sacral motors defined in their own body, could be the root, could be the solar plexus, could be the ego or a combination.

But because that non sacral motor energy does not consistently make it to the throat for the purposes of being manifested through initiation, these are not manifesters.

And so whether or not a projector is an energy projector or not, which again just means they have some access to a non sacral motor in their own body, Their consistent way of showing up and the aura that that surrounds them because of that has nothing to do with the expenditure of that energy. Their auric function has nothing to do with motorized energy.

Projectors along with reflectors do not consistently or orally generate or manifest energy. Their life force, AKA channels. And Auric function as a type is based in awareness, not energy.

And then lastly, the thing that makes a projector a projector contrasts to reflectors who also are non sacrals without a motor to the throat. The thing that sets projectors apart from reflectors is that projectors do have some other definition to contrast the openness.

Reflectors are the only type that has no center definition at all. And the reflector Auric function is based in this total mechanical openness.

The reflector aura samples yet remains unattached to frequency through all nine of the centers.

And then the reflector offers awareness through their process of sampling and sort of evaluating what it is that they are sampling or reflecting back into their environment. Projectors share aspects of this mechanic with reflectors because they are also an awareness based type. Right?

But projectors do have some of their own definitions, some of their own consistent life force, which means projectors cannot take in the entirety of of the environment the way that reflectors do.

And therefore projectors cannot be pure barometers of differentiated truth versus homogenization, which is essentially the role in the Auric function for reflectors, which we'll get to next.

Projectors, rather than being designed to sample all of the energy arounding them through a completely open system, the reflectors projectors are designed for a deep pointed absorption of one other rather than the Teflon. We'll talk about the idea of Teflon when we get to reflectors absorption of the entire environment.

So reflectors kind of take it in, sample it, and then let it roll out. Because they don't have any of their own life force fixicity to grab onto it with. Versus projectors have their own consistent life force.

Can't be these clear completely open barometers instead have this focused aura where they focus on one other and deeply absorbed. So the depth of absorption is specific to the projector aura.

Through the deep absorption and penetration, and with awareness, the projector can clearly see and guide the other. And the awareness for the projector is specifically necessary to be able to discern what is me and what is not me.

Again, that idea of the compare and contrast. Knowing the other to know myself.

And as the projector focuses on Penetrates one other very deeply, they are then able to show the other what they see. Right.

Speaker A: 00:17:30

So this is where the word projector comes from.

Think of a old school projector machine shines a light onto an image and then projects that image larger, more legibly, more visibly on the wall for others to see. And so projectors are specifically designed for the generator. We'll talk about that when we get to talking about the aura.

And specifically designed to be able to show the generator what they see through this process of shining the light, of focusing, penetrating, and absorbing to help guide the generator to energetic efficiency and the satisfaction. So projectors don't aim for feeling satisfied, but getting to amplify a satisfied generator Is a part of their process of success.

Finding ways to experience satisfaction through their process of being the eyes, being the awareness, Rather than trying to force their body into doing in a generated or manifested way. So getting into the penetrating and absorbing aura, Sometimes you'll hear people use the word focused. I believe ragh used both.

I tend to use it penetrating and focused interchangeably. I like them both to describe different aspects of the aura. I think it feels focused for the projector.

I think it feels penetrating for the person that they're focusing on. So I think both words are useful. The projector aura penetrates and locks into the g center of one person at a time.

So if you listen to Ra lectures, you'll hear him talk about, like, I think at one point in the signature projector lecture, he talks about it. A projector kind of like wrapping their. I think he says fist, like fists, like wrapping their fist around your.

Your g center, your magnetic monopole, the place where the self exists. So the projector locks.

That's the part of a person that the projector is locking into and then once locked into, focused on having penetrated that person's aura, Locked onto the g center. And then projectors are absorbing. They're taking in. You'll hear people use the words eat or digest.

You're literally absorbing the energy of the other that you're locked into if you're a projector. And the projector will process that in their own body.

So whether that person is the person the projector is locked into might be really demonstra, really living as themselves in that moment, really demonstrating satisfaction of really having a satisfying experience, or really not for whatever reason, in frustration in their life overall or in that moment. And whatever the person that the projector is locked into is experiencing, the projector will be processing that experience in their own body.

So we all condition each other. Type aside, we all receive conditioning from the other in our undefined centers.

However, the projector aura is specifically deeply absorbing that conditioning. Because really taking in and digesting definition from the other in specific to the sacral center, right?

Because projectors are here primarily for generators. So taking in that motorized life force through their undefined sacral of the generator is a big part of what projectors do.

That is a part of the auric function for projectors. They are more so than any of the other three types taking in that conditioning from the other very, very deeply and with awareness.

When the projector is able to know the difference between themself and their own consistent life force and the other, who they're presently absorbing, then they're able to show the other what it is they see. When they have that clarity of awareness, the discernment to know what's them and what's not. And this is the projected guidance of the projector.

I don't want to overly generalize and say that projectors cannot be of guidance to each other or to manifestors or to reflectors. But I want to note that when we look at these four aura types, the only aura that's designed to be open to penetration is the generators.

I don't know that I would say projectors are not designed to be open to one another. But your aura specifically is about focusing and absorbing the generator aura.

And the only aura that we describe as open and enveloping is the generator aura. And specifically, manifestors have a closed aura that is gonna be very resistant to that penetration. Again, resistant orally.

It's not a matter of the manifester not wanting to be guided from a mind level. It's a matter of the closed aura is not meant to be influenced by outside forces. And the projector is an outer authority. It is an outside force.

The generator is designed to be in response to outside forces. So there's a natural affinity here. There's a natural fitting in of the projector aura into the openness of the generator aura.

And so I just want to point that out here and we'll talk about this more throughout.

I have some Quotes coming on from RA on questions being the way that projectors really guide, I just want to sort of reorient here this idea that the penetrating aura is the only aura designed to really consistently receive that penetration is the generator aura.

And when we think about generator strategy of response and the generator authority, for many generators sacral, even for emotional generators, that sacral yes and no is a part of how their system operates. With their strategy, generators are most supported by yes or no questions.

So just throwing that out there for the projectors listening along for the generators who have projectors in your world, that mechanically it makes sense that generators would be best supported, best guided through really good yes or no questions.

And a projector, through this penetrating process and absorbing process, is able to see what questions would be helpful potentially and what would not. So the strategy for projectors of waiting for the invitation, I always think of it as twofold.

And I think that ultimately the second fold that I'm going to get to here, projectors considering their own experience inside of the aura, is probably the more empowering and more important one even.

But I do want to start with this other idea here, because I think this piece of projectors considering their oryx, the way that others experience your aura, is a part of why waiting is going to lead the projector to more success and away from bitterness. So we're going to consider two things here.

As we first orient to this strategy for the projector of waiting for the invitation, we're going to consider consent from the other, because you literally have an aura that penetrates, and consent is important.

And we're also going to consider your own value, your limited energy and your experience of absorbing the other, because you don't really want to absorb the energy of someone rejecting you. Okay, but we'll start with this. We'll start with the basics consent. Again, you literally have an aura that penetrates when you gaze at another.

When you focus on them, you enter their aura. That's what your aura does, right? The generator aura kind of makes room and envelops, and it's not personal at all.

The manifester aura pushes energy out of the way just by nature of being what it is. It's not something the manifester is consciously trying to do.

And in the same way, regardless of what the projector's mind wants to do, when a projector is focused on another, its aura just naturally will penetrate. And it's an aura that naturally focuses as well. Right?

So the projector can be telling themselves, I don't want to focus, I don't want to penetrate this person. Your aura just will focus. It's what it naturally does. It's what it. How it orients. It orients through focusing.

And penetration requires consent, right? Wait for the invitation whenever possible before assuming the position of penetration.

It's a funny sounding phrase, but I've heard multiple projectors and I've asked, I've sought out stories from projectors on what it feels like to live within this aura.

Both projectors who are like deep in the experiment and have studied human design, and also projectors who loosely know their projectors but don't, haven't gone that deeply into it. And I've heard from many projectors this idea that like, if they are facing a person, they are penetrating that person.

So what I mean by assuming the position of penetration is literally like have an awareness that the moment you're facing and focusing on a person with your gaze, with your body posture, with your attention, you will be penetrating their aura. And so wait for the invitation whenever possible to actually assume that position.

I've heard projectors talk about like wearing sunglasses most of the time, so the gaze is at least sort of covered up. I don't know if that actually makes a difference or not, but it's something I've heard.

And then even when you are focused, when the aura is focused, when it's locked in, wait for the invitation before offering verbal guidance. And so there's kind of two parts to the process.

There's the focused and penetrating, and then there's the absorbing and offering what it is you see through your awareness as you're absorbing, as you're digesting the other's experience, their aura, their situation, their definition, their conditioning, all the circumstantial things to go with that. The rel you the projector is able to feel the relationship of the other person whom they're penetrating.

The relationship of that person's mind to body. Because the projector with awareness can feel the distortion or not and where the distortion is coming from. So there's a real superpower here.

We'll talk about how for various reasons, that process of getting to the point of awareness, like neutral awareness and neutral guidance for the projector takes time, takes at least a seven year period period of deconditioning. But it's something that I imagine all projectors listening have some level of resonance with right away.

This idea of I can see what's not working and how to fix things because I can feel it so clearly in my own body. But wait for the invitation before offering that Verbal guidance.

Because if you guide before you're invited, that guidance is likely going to be unwelcomed and unable to be heard. The experience will not feel correct to either party. I want to remind projectors you're an outer authority.

Even though you're here for the other, and your aura very naturally orients to the other, to focusing on another and locking into that person, digesting and projecting that person's experience, regardless to that other person, you remain an outer authority, just like everyone to you is an outer authority.

So no matter what it is you see through this process of penetrating and absorbing the other, the other person's body, form, definition, life force, still ultimately is their authority and knows what's best for them. So you might be able to see very clearly where the distortion lies, what would offer more energetic efficiency.

But if that person isn't ready for it, they aren't ready for it, period.

And the projector's ability to see systemically, projectors tend to have very sharp minds that think in systems because they're designed for their awareness to be the Auric function, as we've talked about, and we'll talk about more. But regardless of what it is that the projector sees, they still remain in outer authority to the other.

Even though I imagine for the projector, when you're locked into the other, you are, you feel that you are inside their system, but you're using your mind to orient to that which is correct. That's part of the process for projectors.

And remember, the mind, everything above the the throat is designed to be part of the communication system, the outer authority system from being to being. And so even what the projector offers to those, they're designed to guide each other.

And again, primarily the generator, regardless of how on point that guidance is, that offering of awareness is, it is still an outer authority to the other. The other person's body knows when they are ready to hear what you have to offer via your awareness. And so trusting others to.

To invite you when it feels correct for them is a big part of the projector process. When a projector initiates or forces that awareness onto the other because they're seeking recognition. Projectors, your design for recognition.

But the not self will go wild trying to seek it in ways that are actually unhealthy for you. And when that happens, it doesn't actually feel good for the person being penetrated or for the projector. Right.

So kind of flipping the script a bit coming into this piece.

Consider your own value, your own limited energy, because you are not an Energy being, even energy projectors, you have a very limited amount of energy if you have any at all. And consider your experience of absorption when someone's rejecting your guidance, you feel that rejection in your own system.

So for projectors, a lot of your process of waiting for the invitation and of trusting your own authority has to do with boundaries and has to do with recognizing yourself as a precursor to even begin to be able to discern who actually recognizes you and what others energy do I actually want to take in? Right, There's a flip that has to get switched in the deconditioning projectors awareness where it goes from being a plug.

Ra talks about projectors as like plugs looking for a socket to plug into sometimes where it goes from that very disempowering orientation to I need an energy source, I need an other to I'm my own sovereign being.

I am able to use my awareness and my own body's inner authority process to discern which others are ready for and worthy of me plugging into them for this synergistic process of my awareness guiding their energy.

So for projectors, you know, you have to consider for yourself do you really even want to absorb the energy of someone who's resisting your attention and guidance, who's recognizing you maybe for the wrong reasons or not recognizing you at all?

The mind for the projector is going to try to convince it that it needs to be guiding to be plugged into unhealthy connections where the body for the projector is aware of this need for discernment around. Hey, I have an invaluable resource that is my attention.

And I'm not even going to consider offering that attention up to people until I know that they recognize the value of my attention and offer me an invitation.

And even then there's a level of selectivity that projectors need to use discernment around because not any old invitation like the presence of an invitation alone is not a guarantee that it's a healthy invitation. So for the projector, you're, you know, you're designed to be recognized. You, you have an aura that gets attention, period.

Now whether that attention is for being you or for being somebody who you know is able to in the not self world offer attention to the ego mind or be manipulated to be used energetically.

Because remember all non sacrals are easily manipulated when it comes to what we use our life force on because we don't have this fixed motor that says yes and no the way sacrals do. So you know, you're designed to be recognized, but as a non sacral, you're easily manipulated to work and expend energy that you don't actually have.

Maybe even more important than that you don't actually have. Although that's important because it can and does lead projectors to burnout massively.

There's also the fact that you have this other resource that's not energy, that is this attention with prime awareness.

And when a projector is running around chasing recognition or allowing that shitty recognition, the recognition of you for your ability to be manipulated, for your ability to want to be recognized and plugged into the other.

When a projector chases or accepts recognition for things that aren't actually them, living as themselves, as these non energy types, as these awareness beings, then a projector is making themselves unavailable for actually seeing what it is you're designed to see, and being recognized for offering that awareness, rather than offering this easily manipulated energy within your system. Waiting for the invitation for the projector protects your own integrity and your own life force.

Because your life force is not designed to be used like an energy being, your life force is designed to be used in this process of compare and contrast my definition, my life force to the other, through this intense but meaningful process of penetration and absorption.

When a projector chases recognition rather than awaits it, which will always be the result of the not self hijacking in that projector, they're sacrificing the awareness that they could offer from simply being and not doing and actually making themselves unavailable for correct recognition and invitation in order for the projector to be recognized for their supreme awareness rather than for their ability to be manipulated into doing, which happens through that longing for the connection, for the plugging in and through the malleability of the undefined sacral, the projector has to wait for actual recognition and invitation and be discerning by using their authority in which invitations they accept. So what is an invitation? This is something that gets talked about a lot. It most certainly can be a verbal, formal, hey, what do you see?

Hey, I could use some advice. Hey, can I talk to you about an issue I'm having? It could also be something more all encompassing, like a relationship or a job.

You could be invited into a team, you can be invited into a company, you can be invited into a family, a home, a marriage, a friendship, whatever it is. So this question of is it verbal, is it energetic, is it both, can it be either or is it always both?

Does an invitation inherently contain recognition? Are there invitations where people invite you without actually recognizing you? Probably. How do I know if an invitation has expired?

Invitations certainly expire because we are all, you know, mutative beings moving through time and space with changing circumstances and shifting awarenesses and different trajectories. So do invitations expire? How do I know if they've expired?

These are all questions that come up a lot for projectors and have come up a lot in my own process of learning about and observing and teaching about projectors.

But I think ultimately, you know, while I could wax poetic about each of these questions and have begun to a little bit and will continue to throughout this lecture, the most important thing, as with all types and all beings, all individuals, is that these types of questions that will bring a layer of nuance and complexity to someone's human design experiment, in this case, are questions that each projector will just need to explore and experiment with on your own.

So a projector over time is going to know the frequency of an aligned invitation, where they are feeling and being recognized for being themselves and for their awareness. And it may or may not have words to it. It may or may not have certain energetic qualities.

There may or may not be like a texture or a framework or a resonance that a projector in their own body, based on their own authority, whether they're an emotional, splenic, ego, self projected or mental projector, all projectors are going to, through their experience, through their experimentation over time, become more and more clear on what is an invitation. Just that question period. What does it feel like? What does it sound like? What kinds of invitations feel correct to me?

The only way to get answers to these questions is through exploring them in living your life, in your relationships and using success and bitterness, the theme and not self theme for projectors as these sort of signposts of what 10 what has tended to lead me towards success and when and how does bitterness show up for me? And the filter for all of this is the authority.

So we haven't gotten to the authority section in Lyd yet, but when we do get to authority, that's gonna be sort of the piece that brings it altogether. And this is true for everyone.

The authority is the piece that brings it together because it's the peace within your own body system that's filtering all this information and checking it against what your own body knows to be true in the past, in the present, and in, in your ongoing experimentation.

So for the projector specifically, the authority is the filter for all these questions about what even is an invitation, as well as for quality control of what invitations that the projector accepts. Says yes to. One of the things that we'll look at pretty closely is this idea of the projector having the projector's well being.

And this is the case for reflectors too, in a different way, having so much to do with who is around them. Because the Auric function for both the projector and the reflector has to do with taking in from the outside.

And so one way that I remember hearing about it was through my teacher Alaq's phrasing that when a projector accepts an invitation, they're agreeing to another's movie. So because the way the projector aura is designed, because of the functionality, the projectors are here for their Auric purpose.

When a projector accepts an invitation, they're essentially, I think I remember a Locke kind of expanding on this idea, saying something to the effect of like they're essentially agreeing to be a character in another's movie. Because projectors are there to offer this guidance to the other. And that feels correct for the projector.

That's your purpose as a solar being who has your own fixed life force and purpose. That's correct for the projector. So it's not inherently like codependent or problematic that the projector is so other oriented.

That's what you're designed to do. You deeply penetrate and focus so much on the other that you immerse yourself in their experience.

So when we're talking about these big invitations, you know, outside of like a moment of one on one connection, when we're talking about these big invitations, you're invited to be a part of this, you know, project as, as your work in life. You're invited to be in this relationship, to live in this home.

These are really crucial for the projector to use their discernment around because when you accept those invitations, you're accepting that you're going to immerse yourself in whatever that is because your aura focuses in that way. It penetrates and absorbs in such a focused way. And so it's so important.

I remember Alaq saying to go with this, that like the projector really has to know before the yes, because once you're in, you're in. Once you're in, you're on this ride, you're in this movie. Another question that comes up a lot is what actually requires invitation? You'll.

I've heard people say projectors need invitations to leave situations.

So just like I was just saying and sharing from my studies with the lock, once a projector accepts an invitation, they're in that movie, they're along for that ride.

So when a projector realizes that perhaps that invitation has expired, or perhaps it was never even the right invitation for them and they accepted it based on the strategy of the not self minded, how does a projector get out? Again, this is a question for projectors to discern in their own way.

But I have heard people say that projectors need invitations even to leave shitty situations, to leave a bad relationship, to leave a bad living situation. That there's some some support that can come to the projector through other invitations to unplug and plug into something else.

Now I can totally see why aspects of that way of thinking could be disempowering and could lend to codependency. So, you know, take it with a grain of salt, experiment with that to the extent that feels correct for you.

If you are a projector, I'm just kind of sharing things I've heard. I don't necessarily condone or not condone this.

Do projectors need invitations to move through their lives in ways that are outside of their Auric penetration and guidance, AKA ways that do not affect or require the other?

So kind of similarly to this question above, like a big part of the projector waiting for the invitation is to stop the pattern for the not self projector of chasing recognition and constantly initiating or showing up in response in ways that aren't correct for the projector forcing energy expenditure, which is not what the projector design is about, in order to stop that pattern, the projector learns to wait for invitations.

Wait until you're truly recognized, because it's only when you're truly recognized that you're able to provide your value, which is your attention and your awareness. We talked about how a big part of that is consent to penetrate as well.

So if there isn't a penetration happening, if it's just I want to leave this relationship or I want to move leave this job, I want to move out of this house, does a projector need an invitation to that if it doesn't actually have to do with this penetration of the other? Again, these are just questions for each individual projector to experiment with and discern from for yourself. My current sense is that no.

Projectors don't need invitations to make their own decisions outside of penetration of the other. You have your own authority for that.

Waiting for the invitation as sort of a radical experiment I do think is useful at times for projectors to decondition their impulsiveness towards initiating, trying to be a manifestor or generating, responding, working to. So I do Think that there's potential value in that pretty radical experimentation of waiting for invitations.

Part of the value I see in that is this concept of the projector glide. I see the potential for a correct projector to simply glide through their life. As in, you really don't have to do anything.

All the projector needs to do is be aware and honor the sanctity of their own aura and their own attention, and trust that in the waiting, in the being, in the honoring the sanctity of their own attention, the right eyes will come to them, the right opportunities, the right invitations will come. And not trying to get in the way of that, through the mental distortion, through the flavors of the undefined centers.

And I have sort of witnessed from the outside again that slipping of a switch for projectors where suddenly you're just gliding. You realize that you don't actually have to lift a finger.

And so again, I think that the kind of radical seeming experimentation of waiting for invitations can be really useful to a point and seeing, like showing your mind how easy it actually can be for you, regardless of how hard your mind tries to make it easy in that projector gliding way. I like to say lately, projectors shouldn't have to lift a finger because that's not what you're here for. You're not here for that energetic labor.

I also do see, though, on the other end of that getting dogmatic about this idea of waiting for the invitation and projectors, you know, essentially then coming into a very like, disempowered, weak, victimized place, which just. It just adds more to the bitterness of feeling like I'm. No one's inviting me, no one's seeing me, which is the. At the basis of bitterness.

And we'll talk about that more.

So just another invitation here for projectors to play with this idea of invitation and to notice if you tend to get really sticky about it one way or the other, everything has to be an invitation. I can't do anything. Or, you know, on the other side of that kind of dismissing your birthright of ease through not trusting the invitation.

Where I'm at right now, kind of watching the ex. The projectors in my sphere, either ones that I've met through human design or who I've initiated into human design.

I see a lot of projectors experimenting with these types of questions, trying it out kind of both ways. The radical invitation and then the. The more kind of soft invitation in the background, not being so radical about it. And I think it's really cool.

And I've seen projectors glean a lot through both approaches and through switching kind of between. Because remember, the human design experiment is an experiment. You have to play with it to find out.

So here's something that RA says in his signature lecture on projectors. So kind of his way of answering this question of what actually requires invitation.

Ra says for the projector, the strategy of the invitation is not about anything banal or mundane.

So he's saying it's not actually about do I need to be invited to, you know, pay attention to this today, to use my attention and my energy on this day in this way, do I need to be invited to have this hobby? Right? So this is kind of answering my question of do you need invitations to move through your lives in ways outside of that Auric penetration?

RA here is essentially saying, no, the strategy of invitation is not about anything banal or mundane. And then he contrasts this by saying the glory of the Generator is that they have mundane truth.

In other words, everything in life for the Generator can be dealt with honestly, with a yes or no in their response. So generators have something in every moment to guide them. Yes, no, yes, this, no, this.

Because this is the natural way of the Generator to be in this constant response. This is not the case. It's not so simple for projectors, and as we talked about with manifestors, it's not so simple.

The sacral really offers the potential for simplicity through this mundane truth, this physical truth in every moment that that generators have based on their sacral availability for something or not. But if you're a projector, your strategy of imitation is limited to these larger things.

Which friend, which lover, which job, big things, where to be, these kinds of things that are major issues in the life part of this RA quote. And he goes on to say, this is what the invitation is about. This, as in all this big stuff here.

And then he says all the little stuff, the stuff that for the generators is the mundane truth in the moment that comes from the conditioning of others when you plug into it.

So RA is saying here, my translation of it is basically when the projector accepts the correct big invitations, then the conditioning and the mundane truth that's happening through the everyday stuff in the meantime, in between big invitations. And underneath the umbrella of big invitations will be correct, because the overarching invitation is correct.

So again, it comes back to the importance of the projector having discernment in regards to who they are plugged into and in these bigger ways, a little bit more on what is an invitation. Ra says investor invitations generally, but not Exclusively apply to the four major decisions one makes in life. So investor invitations.

Essentially here he's referring to people who invest their energy in the into a projector via invitation for the purposes of receiving the projector sort of asset or value, that is their attention, their awareness and their guidance. One of the four major decisions one makes in life.

The invitation to love, relationship, to a career, work, to bond with others, more relationship and a place to live.

Once an invitation is received and accepted, projectors can use all the skills at their disposal within the parameters set by the invitation for as long as the investor remains open and receptive and willing to play their part, willing to offer the energetic resources, willing to offer them money, whatever it is. All the things that the projector gets in exchange for offering their attention are part of the parameters of this invitation.

This can be for a few weeks, a few months, a few years, or for the rest of their lives, right? So these big umbrella invitations.

When entering into any of these major long term commitments, projectors need to be intentional and deliberate in following their strategy and authority. The next essential step for projectors is being selective.

Just because they finally received an invitation doesn't automatically make it right for them. The projector authority will guide them to the right energy exchange for them. Each projector's decision making process is unique.

And the best way to determine what a correct invitation looks like is to measure the level of resistance they meet when they act on one.

Over time and with increased self awareness, the projector's proficiency at recognizing correct invitations improves and the process itself is refined.

When projectors are recognized and invited, they suddenly have access to the reliable energy of others, which in turn releases their own projector gifts and outer authority. Patience and careful observation are once again key factors.

And RA says that all invitations do in fact come with an expiration date if the invitation has lost its energy or excitement.

If the parameters of the exchange no longer feel correct for one or both parties, then the invitation has been withdrawn or perhaps the job is complete, but no one has noticed we're not following up on those parameters. The projector may feel that things just aren't working anymore, such as money, interest, support or adequate time is no longer available.

And at this point it's helpful to discuss the situation. The projector uses their authority, along with the strategy of waiting for the invitation, to discern which invitations.

But then there's also that process of discerning feel successful. It feels successful. Okay, now it seems like this particular exchange, this particular particular arrangement of plugging in, is no longer working.

It's no longer leading you to satisfaction, me to success. So there's a term, there's a need for a discussion of the terms. So what is success?

I've already brought in these ideas of bitterness and success as the signposts. Let's get into that. Projector signature is success. The projector not self theme is bitterness. We'll talk about both. But first, language alert.

Similarly to what I offered for the generators when I first started talking about work and productivity and energy expenditure and labor, I wanted to sort of inoculate everyone to the potential that the mind has to get wrapped up in baggage and conventional homogenized ideas of what those words, work, labor, workforce, productivity mean. Same thing here. The mind has a whole lot of ideas of what success means. And very pointedly so.

Signature success for the projector is not about homogeneity's ideas of success.

So as you're coming into human design for a projector specifically, but also for all the other types just orienting to what success is for a projector as you study it, understand that everything you come to the table with right now in terms of what you think success means is coloring your ability to really orient to what success actually is at a frequency level for the projector.

And it takes time to detangle true success, the frequency of that, the mechanics of that for a projector, than the version of homogenized success that the mind understands and has grasped onto. So here's just the initiation into realizing that when we talk about success for projectors, we're not talking about your mind's idea of success.

We're talking about something different. We're going to get into what that something different is. But it's going to take time.

Like, understand that everything that you study in human design has to pass through the realm of the mind. You receive it on the intellectual level.

And the mind, with all of its not self tendencies, is going to grasp and hold and try to distort your understanding of this knowledge. So that's the bad news. The good news is that that's always happening. That's the bad news too. It's always happening. It never stops.

But the good news that is, is that it's always happening alongside this other process of your body cellularly somatically reorienting to truth, to your individual understanding of truth and your truth.

And so while the mind for projectors is going to grapple at this idea of success and distort your idea of success, your body is also remembering what true success feels like. And so it's just a matter of patience and awareness, watching your overall orientation towards success change as you decondition.

Guess I'm talking specifically to projectors, but I think this happens for all of us with our own signatures and also with what we understand about the other types, signatures and also with every single concept within the human design framework.

So what we're really getting at here is that when we talk about success for the projector, we need to understand that we are not talking about homogeneity's ideas of success, right? We're not talking about material success necessarily. We're not talking about fame, we're not talking about influence, impact or power.

Although to the not self projector, especially early in their deconditioning journey, who deeply craves recognition after a lifetime of feeling under recognized, manipulated in the world of energy types and bitter from the constancy of inefficiency and amplification of frustration that they just know could be remediated if only their awareness wasn't being discarded. So I'm describing a very classic not self projector here, right?

Someone who all of these things knows they're designed to be recognized, knows that if only people would listen, would recognize me, invite me in, we wouldn't all be so frustrated. I have something to offer, right?

All of this stuff, a lifetime of being manipulated, burnt out because of trying to conform for the purposes of recognition rather than wait for true recognition to this not self projector who just knows they see something and just knows that underneath all the not self stuff that's telling them to devalue themselves and thus distort themselves into trying to be an energy being, the not self mind is going to take this idea of homogenized success, material success, fame, influence, impact and power, and it's going to try to hypnotize your process. It's going to distract you.

The mind's idea of success, the homogenized idea of success can be incredibly alluring and hypnotizing and distracting to the not self projector.

So you will see projectors out there in, you know, the, the human design world who try to draw a direct connection to projector success and material success, to projector success and recognition, to fame, to influence, impact and power, right? And these are things that totally can happen underneath the umbrella of correctness for projectors.

But I just want to specify, this is not what success means, okay? Success for the projector is something different that may or may not lead to varying degrees of these things, right? But especially this last piece.

Influence, impact, power, those are things that come from a motorized throat. Okay, so projector recognition allows for projector success when plugged into the right places.

And there is a level of power that comes with that, and that's a power in the projector sovereignty and the power to achieve success through their guidance. But it's very different than the coercive power over dynamics that historical leadership looks like.

And we'll talk about that when we talk about leadership in the manifestor era and the projector era. So what is signature projector success about then? I sort of see it as being about three things.

One, signature projector success is about successfully living as yourself without having to push force, manipulate or sacrifice. Not having to push force, initiate. Right? That's very manifestory. That's what the projector not self does when it's trying to be a manifestor.

Not having, not trying to manipulate, to manipulate people into recognizing you, not sacrificing the truth of who you are in order to be recognized, but rather successfully living as yourself so that you can then be recognized for your true value as an awareness, so that you can be invited by those who truly recognize you to offer your most valuable resource of your attention, so that your penetration, your attention, your awareness, and your guidance are able to support energetic efficiency, not perpetuate energetic misuse in yourself and others. So first is just you get to be yourself, and that works for you and for those who it is correct for you to be in a relationship with.

Second, projector success is about feeling the shift mechanically from frustration to satisfaction, because that's happening in your own body as you guide it. So I've really come to understand at least one aspect of projector success as being about.

Okay, I've been invited to come into this situation, and I think of it as like performing energetic surgery. The projector goes in with their skilled mind, with their sharp tools that are the skilled mind and the penetrating aura, they feel what's happening.

And through that deep absorption and neutral awareness, the projector is then able to ask the questions that help bring awareness to the generator, that help bring awareness and even to another projector too. But here I'm talking specifically about the generator. It kind of like moves the energy blockages around which are happening because of the mind.

And while the generator experiences this dense shift from like the potential of, of frustration to, oh, I can just let my life force flow where it's meant to go without getting all these blocks in the way from my mind, they swing towards satisfaction, freedom, satisfaction. And for the projector that feels like, ah, everything back in its right place, a feeling of awe there is sort of how I think about it.

So through the amplified experience of frustration to satisfaction, that shift that the projector attention is able to offer, the projector in their own body might feel that shift from from frustration to satisfaction. And that feels like success for the projector too. And then lastly, projector success is about ease.

It is about that projector glide, like not having to lift a finger in the mechanically correct, interdependent differentiated world. Projectors don't have to lift a finger because they are honored for being vessels with supreme attention and awareness. And there's no need to.

And this kind of feeds back up into the first bullet point here to try to push, force or manipulate that Auric function, that person to try to be something other than this awareness. And so ease. It should be easeful for a projector and ease for the projector.

The part of signature success that is simply about ease is about being as opposed to doing and being seen and invited from that state of being to guide energy, not to exert it.

From the definitive book of human Design, "The personal success for the projector is dependent on having energetically healthy people around them who acknowledge their projector skills and offer them energy resources to work with."

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